Catchy title but I didn't lied. I always wonder why I keep going back to what hurts me. Aku tahu it literally break my heart and I know how it will end but instead of putting a line on it, I try harder dgn harapan things will change.
I know. Pathetic right?
I just realised dari aku form 1 sampai skrg I have never been single. Like really single..single u know. There's always someone or somebody that I attached to or they shown their interest towards me that I can mingle around.
Bila fikir balik aku rasa aku ada attachment problem. After any breakups, mesti dah ada someone yg tunggu so I never alone. Ada je yg teman. Bila sampai satu tahap aku dah give up dgn manusia, I dont try to get to know new ppl, thats why I keep on going back to what hurts me. Sebab kalau aku put a line on it, where should I put my heart and interest? Fuck my subsconscious mind!
Macamana eh aku boleh hidup bertahun mcm ni? I've known to always figure things out and have backup plans so bila aku takde backup plan, aku stay. Hiding behind the words "sayang"...
Marilah kita sama sama belajar on how not to get easily attached. Gua penat doh. Serious penat. Hati aku lembik dah. Kalau aku Ironman, i dont know how many countless time aku tukar battery.
Cukup lah sampai sini dulu kot. Start slow slow borak dlm blog like I used to.
